On Forgiving

I was browsing on Deedee’s Diary, and suddenly thought of something because of her “Forgive and Forget“.

More than a decade ago, I had an issue with one of my girlfriends. She was one of the bests. We came from one school and place. Became more closer when we reached High School. We never had problems. We enrolled in one university. We stayed in one boarding house. Until… “Someone” came between us. I believed I wasn’t at fault. At first, I blamed her. I blamed it all to her. When she knows “we” are still together, why intrude on someone’s property? Are you getting the picture? But as they say, it takes two tango. Why blame her? Blame them! And blame me for keeping bad thoughts about them for a while….

Anyway, I don’t want to brag on the story…. Some of our “barkadas” would tell me that time, “forget that, at least nalaman mo ng maaga pa”. It’s not that. It’s not that I was mourning for “him”. I was… I did…. For the friendship that we built years and years ago. But I would say I’m one of the few people who does not use “Pasko” and “Holy Week” to forgive. I will, when I’m ready.

In fact, I already did. I tried to reach out, but she remained aloof. I tried my best, but I failed. I had forgiven her. But I won’t be hypocrite and say that “I had forgotten what happened”. It’ll remain in my heart forever, for it made me realized how “less” my life had become without her. We would’ve been happier now sharing our mommy moments.

I wish that one day, she’ll land on my blog reading this. I’m sure, she will. We still have connections. And thru them, I am keeping my high hopes, that one day we will “reunite” as how we had dreamed of back then… that we would have our houses built in one place so that our kids could grow together…

ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Blogger since 2007 | Home-based Marketing Assistant | WAHM | Ex-OFW | Music enthusiast | Cactus and Succulent Hobbyist | A 41 y/o mom of two lovely girls sharing her adventures as she walks through motherhood and having to do most things on her own while her Indian national husband works miles away from home.

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3 Comments

  1. sis, u’ve stirred my thots with this writing. hehehe. but can’t arranged my words to form the paragraph. and dami ko kasing iniisip…

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  2. yeah, mahirap ang magpatawad at makalimot. i’m still in the process. mas masakit kung ang nakasakit sa yo e kaibigan mo pa. i hope nga mabasa nya blog mo para you can be friends again. 🙂

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  3. It’s much easier to forgive when you are “both” ready. But when the other party isn’t, mas masakit para sa isa.

    I’ll make her read this hehehe! One day… someday… 😉

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