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Featured Mommy : Brown Pinay

As promised, I’ll be featuring mommies in this blog in celebration to this month’s Mother’s Day, and who knows I’d continue to do so, if other mommies would also continue to share a part of them to us. First mom to get featured would be Mommy Cielo also known as Brown Pinay in the blogosphere. Here’s her answer to the question “The moment you saw your first born, how did you welcome and embrace the changes, you, being a mom and home maker at the same time?”

On October 15, 1993, I had undergone the knife (Caesarian Operation), I insisted to my OB that I can deliver my first born via Normal delivery since CS Operation is very heavy on the pocket, but she insisted that it will already be risky because I was already overdue and the baby was no longer moving. Never have I been so afraid that time, even though I am not yet ready for Motherhood, I do not want to lose my baby. Perhaps you will find my answer in here to be unconventional….The first time that I heard the cry of my first born fear engulfed me. It was a mixed emotion; I was in doubt if I can carry on with the responsibilities along with motherhood.

{ But please do not judge me since I can explain myself. I got pregnant even before I even got married; I am a product of early pregnancy and teenage marriage. I did not experience the usual joys of pregnancy since both my parents and in-laws were angry of what has happened. – see our Our Life Story }

But when the doctor showed my little girl to me while I am still in the Operating Room, all my doubts and fears were lost, it was validated with happiness, hope and love. Tears were flowing in my eyes, and I felt so guilty that once I even think of giving up on her. I should have never considered that but since I was still studying that time, I considered it, but thanks God that my husband stood by my side all the way.

It is not easy starting a family and being a Mom especially if you do not know where to start. It was a big shift and adjustment. Financial has been a big issue that time

Life was really hard that time that I am crying right now recalling how it was….but I can vividly remember that just when we I am about to give up that time…the smile of my little Ishi keeps me going…Just when I find pity in my heart, her hug makes me the most proud Mom in this whole wide universe. She gave us direction in our life to better ourselves. Allan and I vowed that we will do our best to give them the best that she deserves.

I have no difficulty dealing with the tasks of being a home maker since I came from an average family where in all of my siblings and I are used to all the housework. But it is motherhood that has changed me. It made me stronger. It has changed my perspective and priorities in life. It makes me bring out the best in me….

17 years has past since the first time that I saw my little Ishi, she will be turning 18 this October. I am also a Mom of a little boy Icko (7 years old). – “I LOVE BEING A MOM” – it is the most wonderful opportunity God has given me.

Cielo is also known in the blogosphere as Brown Pinay. A working Mom with 2 kids and an OFW hubby. A blogger since 2005.

Marketing Manager at Adventures Beyond Group | WAHM | Ex-OFW | Music Enthusiast | Cactus and Succulent Hobbyist | Hello Kitty Lover | A 42 y/o mom of two lovely girls sharing her adventures as she walks through motherhood and having to do most things on her own while her Indian national husband works miles away from home.


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