As promised, I’ll be featuring mommies in this blog in celebration to this month’s Mother’s Day, and who knows I’d continue to do so, if other mommies would also continue to share a part of them to us. First mom to get featured would be Mommy Cielo also known as Brown Pinay in the blogosphere. Here’s her answer to the question “The moment you saw your first born, how did you welcome and embrace the changes, you, being a mom and home maker at the same time?”
On October 15, 1993, I had undergone the knife (Caesarian Operation), I insisted to my OB that I can deliver my first born via Normal delivery since CS Operation is very heavy on the pocket, but she insisted that it will already be risky because I was already overdue and the baby was no longer moving. Never have I been so afraid that time, even though I am not yet ready for Motherhood, I do not want to lose my baby. Perhaps you will find my answer in here to be unconventional….The first time that I heard the cry of my first born fear engulfed me. It was a mixed emotion; I was in doubt if I can carry on with the responsibilities along with motherhood.
{ But please do not judge me since I can explain myself. I got pregnant even before I even got married; I am a product of early pregnancy and teenage marriage. I did not experience the usual joys of pregnancy since both my parents and in-laws were angry of what has happened. – see our Our Life Story }
But when the doctor showed my little girl to me while I am still in the Operating Room, all my doubts and fears were lost, it was validated with happiness, hope and love. Tears were flowing in my eyes, and I felt so guilty that once I even think of giving up on her. I should have never considered that but since I was still studying that time, I considered it, but thanks God that my husband stood by my side all the way.
It is not easy starting a family and being a Mom especially if you do not know where to start. It was a big shift and adjustment. Financial has been a big issue that time
Life was really hard that time that I am crying right now recalling how it was….but I can vividly remember that just when we I am about to give up that time…the smile of my little Ishi keeps me going…Just when I find pity in my heart, her hug makes me the most proud Mom in this whole wide universe. She gave us direction in our life to better ourselves. Allan and I vowed that we will do our best to give them the best that she deserves.
I have no difficulty dealing with the tasks of being a home maker since I came from an average family where in all of my siblings and I are used to all the housework. But it is motherhood that has changed me. It made me stronger. It has changed my perspective and priorities in life. It makes me bring out the best in me….
17 years has past since the first time that I saw my little Ishi, she will be turning 18 this October. I am also a Mom of a little boy Icko (7 years old). – “I LOVE BEING A MOM” – it is the most wonderful opportunity God has given me.
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Cielo is also known in the blogosphere as Brown Pinay. A working Mom with 2 kids and an OFW hubby. A blogger since 2005.
we have almost the same story sis. had my first born even before marriage. contemplated on having him removed but having been educated in an all-girls catholic school all my school life, mejo nakonsensya ako. too many doubts and questions before giving birth but the moment my boy came out, nawala lahat. even my dad who was disappointed in me (because i was his favorite daughter and still am), suddenly became the doting LOLO. until now, my son is his favorite apo.
thanks for sharing your story.
nice one mitch for featuring this=)
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@Cielo, it’s good that you held on… 🙂
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I pregnant before getting married to but done with my studies. Ako naman, super excited ako kasi I really want to start a family, at a young age.
I agree, motherhood can be really scary at the start but each change is all worth it.
Dalagita na pala ang eldest mo sis. 🙂
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wow.. very touching story mommy! I cannot imagine having an 18 year old. YOu must be proud of yourself.. you raised your daughter well and she is blessed to have you. Happy Mom’s day!
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I admire single moms and mas lalo kong inaadmire ang mga young moms who stood up for their babies. Di biro ang manganak at mas lalong di biro ang responsibilities ng isang nanay.
Kudos to Mommy Cielo and the rest who are and have been in her shoes.
Mommy Cielo, I am speechless. You have been through a lot, and made huge sacrifices for your kids. I’m sure they are as proud of you as you are of them. You don’t look like you already have an 18-yr old, by the way 🙂
Brown Pinay’s story is very inspiring…motherhood is the best career ever. it changes women’s lives , ika nga. Advanced Happy Mom’s Day to Cielo and to you, Mtich!
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Salamat sa mga andalaw dito at nakishare sa storya ng aking buhay…
Pag nga nalalaman ng iba ang aking life story..parang di sila naniniwala kasi sabi nila patawa ako…pero sabi nga nila “behind the mask of the clown is a sad face”..
But now we are A-OK…I am very thankful to God that we were able to surpass all the trials
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I blogged about this entry sis:
http://www.brownpinay.com/2011/05/featured-mommy.html
Cielo of Brown Pinay’s last blog post..I am a Featured Mommy at {Thoughts & Sentiments of a Blogging SAHM Mom}
it must be very difficult + scary to be a mother in such a young age, with your parents + inlaws disapproving it + all, i salute you for standing up for your baby!
congratulations for being a great mom to your beautiful children, women like you inspire me to be the best mom for my son, too. it will definitely be no walk in the park, but having our little angels, our little piece of heaven, makes the journey worth it + all the pain that goes with it seem tolerable..
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Way to go Cielo. Motherhood may be a life of twists and turns but one good thing about is that as mothers we are able to turn our lives around because of our children.