But hey! If a working mom is a counterpart of wonder woman, I think a stay at home mom is a counterpart of super woman. I think they deserve to be rewarded even in some simple ways. Let them know that they are very much appreciated. I remember Sassy Lawyer Mom posted that SAHM are saints. I think so too! Imagine, dedicating your full time 24/7 to your family. It’s the toughest unpaid job ever! It’s not an easy job! Don’t you think so???
You know what? I never considered myself becoming a SAHM. For some selfish reasons. I’ve always told my parents that when I get married I’ll make sure that I won’t ever give up my job, ever! Reasons? What if my marriage won’t work? Who will provide our needs? Etc. What if “malosyang” ako? My husband would definitely find someone else.
But that was before…. Nung maging nanay ako, everything changed.
Two months ago, my daughter got really sick. It happened right after we came from our vacation backhome. I had to stay at home for almost a week. Priorities first. Told myself, “bahala na, madami namang trabaho dyan pero ang buhay ng anak ko iisa lang”. If they fire me, at least I know I’ve made the right decision. Fortunately, boss didn’t say anything. But what if it happens again? Would he tolerate? I don’t think so…
Every time my daughter falls sick, “napapraning” ako! I know one thing na kahit gaano sila kaclose sa tatay nila or sa grandparents, they still long for their mothers and would choose to be with us whenever they are not well.
Few days ago, I suffered from a severe cold/flu. My daughter got it already. Kahit gustuhin kong di lumapit sa kanya, there’s no one else to look after her. Husband goes to work at night.
This morning she was crying when she saw me dressed up for work, which is not normal. Everyday, she would even say “babay” and give flying kisses as I leave the house. But you see, when she’s sick, she tends to be a mommy’s girl… And with that look, napapabilis ang labas ko ng bahay. It breaks my heart thinking na dapat ako yung andun at hindi ang yaya.
But right now I can only do so much. Make everything up to her when I come home. I have to work. We’re not both from a well-off family and they still need our support once in a while.
I just wish… one day I’d have the courage to totally change my role, from an Executive Secretary to a 24/7 SAHM, like Mommy Feng. What if I won’t be wearing lipstick anymore? I’m sure my world will be more colourful even without it…